i forgot about this until just a couple hours ago:

"for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities,
against powers,
against the rulers of the darkness of the world,
against spiritual wickedness in high places."

it hit home today.

i gave my first "talking-to"/ scold/ e-mail bitchslap today at a lower-classmen...

more on the story to follow. i just wanted to express how while it alleviated much, and while i tried to put it as nicely as possible, it wasn't as satisfying as i thought it would be...

granted, i was stupid as a freshman. but i feel like i was still wise about it and didn't piss too many people off...?

go figure.

it's been awhile since i've posted...

but it's been great so far.

the fall break was great. friday i got to go up to the top of the ford (ES&T building) at night and hang out. cigars are nice. saturday i got to just hang out and do almost nada. really, i think i hardly left the apartment. sunday i went to church, got some lunch, and then... really let my brain rot. yesterday i got to play some frisbee for practice, and got some new clothes from target. yes, i sound like a woman. but i desperately needed shorts (had 0 pairs) and jeans (both have holes in awkward locations). so i got some shorts for about 10 dollars each. good deal. although winter is approaching.grab yo pheet is in the intramurals independent league finals!!! and we're playing joe's team i'm really pumped about that, no more nervousness from here on out, it's just do the best we can and have fun doing it -- something we've been doing throughout, but really, this is where it's all just smiles for me. i'm really excited and no matter what the outcome... it's going to be a great night.

part of me is starting to feel the anguish that key members will be gone.
but it only means there's no turning back now, we just have to keep playing. and i do. i want to keep playing with this team that i am so proud to be part of.

on another note, i just finished the time traveler's wife. i disagree with the way it ended, but it was a great book. and i feel this emptiness from having finished it, after having it with me for about a month now, reading it. i usually finish books so much sooner, and maybe the additional time spent has given me some attachment to it.

but on the bright side, it makes me want to read more books now.

love languages

gary chapman is an author of the series "five language of love" (or something to that effect). according to this man, those five are:

-quality time
-words of affirmation
-giving/ receiving gifts
-physical touch
-acts of service

i think they're fairly self-explanatory, and fairly accurate ways to divide them out. my room has been discussing this a bit lately, while elyse is in the room talking about it. i'm primarily one who is physical touch (no surprise there..). phil was quality time. chris was acts of service. john is yet to be determined, but i'm guessing it's either words of affirmation or acts of service. i think? the concept is interesting, and if anything, gives me a direction to understand how to love people better. and i feel like that is something i want to work on more this year (and continuing on to forever).

i feel like this weekend has been a lot about love, for some reason.

i love my life.
i love my friends.
i love grab yo pheet.
i love hibisca.

grab yo pheet

so... lessons of today.

i need to chill out.

i think today's over-excitement was due to:

1. not having played at all this season yet.
2. my general distrust/ disapproval towards fraternities.
3. not having played at all this season yet.

we won today 11 - 1. it was another day of mercy-ruling.

i have awesome teammates.
eddie. travis. dan gempesaw. nate. alain. ej. phil. alex. brad. sidd. ross. aaron. graydon. basil. gabe. james. ben.

they're all so damn good.
i now just

need to chill.

it's a little discouraging when people don't show up to practice.
3, 4 seems like it's acceptable. i can understand when people tell me when they don't make it.
but straight out missing seems outright irresponsible.

i guess despite the fact it's IM, people still want to win. and once a week doesn't seem like it's asking for much.
i've asked when people want to play, can play. no feedback.

today, less than half the team showed up.

couldn't really do much with it.

i have a slight cold, i'm tired, i have other things i could be doing too.

missing another game tomorrow, but another game at 11 pm. so finally i'll get to play.

i don't know if i'm putting too much responsibility on myself or not.

i enjoy the presence of people so it was great that we had eight other people there.
but i also feel like if i put the effort, people should too.

sigh.

i'm going to bed.

the first 3 weeks have not been exactly what i have wanted them to be.

week 1 involved the sick puppies concert, which can only be said as phenomenal, and i have most definitely not gone to a better concert since breaking benjamin in freshman year. it seemed appropriate to have in senior year one of the best concerts again with one of my best friends in college, with whom i shared my first (and best) concert experience with. it was fairly low key place, we were maybe three feet or less away from the bands that played. one guitarist was showing off, and all i could think of was, my buddy stuart could smoke this guy in a riff-off any day. in other news, the bassist of sick puppies was insanely good. what a great concert.

however, classes have not been so good.

but i do know that all i need to do is really, just step it up.
orgo 2 test 1 was an epic fail. i think it was proof i have not quite gotten into the swing of things yet. so i will. i need to catch up in biotransport. i understand nothing in that class so far.

frisbee has felt empty. i miss colin. i miss karen. but it's so nice to be able to play with dan gempesaw and nate, and alain, and some other new faces. i'm going to miss some of the faces that won't be here after this year. there are a lot of regrets, and i feel like the choice i made prevented other people that would have been awesome to play with from playing on our team. i feel like i've caused unnecessary drama. but that blew away, and now we're onto practices. it's great to have people that come, encouraging that we have a fairly high turnout. i have doubts about some of the few that haven't shown up. but... it's intramurals. i guess i keep wanting to do better than the previous years'. it would be awesome to get to the school championships. and it would be awesome to get to play against joe's team in the finals.

... it could happen...

and, it frustrates me i haven't been able to play the first two games... it's so lame.

stephanie and rex are leaving so soon, and how much time has passed really hit me. so much seems to have passed in a blink of an eye. i miss the old room 214. i sincerely hope there are still times to come where we can spend time again. together.

now.
to time traveler's wife.

( - man card?)