i sound like a broken record as i say this

but i really do miss ultimate. and every time i'm out there it feels so good.
today was the first ultimate get together i've had in awhile. it was nice but at the same time... i was so unfit.

i hope after a month of this i can keep up. running has got so many motivators now...

and you know, now that i've gone from THREE classes to TWO classes (as LCC wouldn't let me register), i really have no reason... and now to look for a volunteering gig for the summer...

i do have a bike too. with working (pending) brakes? so yeah. really, time to be somewhat active (and safe). no wipeouts this semester.

gravy.

started working on my personal statement for pre-vet. good grief, i hope i can pull this off. i'm going to have to be really convincing (and not too cliché) to be able to make it... and pray. i hope this is the right direction.

pride

the older i get, i feel like the harder it gets to fight with this.
that being said, the older i get, the more pride beatdowns i get too.

sigh.

running has all of a sudden become difficult. i need to get back in shape. half marathon in the fall? i hope i can keep this up.

also, mr rodriguez is now fulltime!
praise God :)

as the semester draws to a close

reflections coming soon.

BUT.

goals for the summer:

1. keep losing some poundage yo!
   
2. repeat insanity/ do p90x
3. run at least 5 miles by the end of summer with reasonable time
   
4. ultimate! ultimate ultimate ultimate -- really looking forward to summer league. NOT going to get injured (as often) this season.
   
5. go see adam, philsky, matt.
6. find some kind of volunteering gig with animals.
7. education!
   

a lot of things have been happening in my life.

classes have been rough as anything. i still carry on. lol. for the most part i still enjoy the majority of my classes, but honestly, another week break in between would have been nice.

love in all its forms is a wonderful thing.
it was ben's surprise b-day, and i'm still astounded at how ben's mom managed to organize us together.

things i want to maintain over the summer:

1. ultimate
2. reading
3. exercise (running, insanity again?, swim)

things i want to start over the summer:
1. riding my bike (again)
2. intern at the humane society
3. study for gre (well, you know, want vs need t0)

and if i can:
1. play tennis

i also plan on going to one of my best friends' wedding, up in wisconsin. i'm looking forward to seeing him again, and it's so strange how time jumps you. every time.

think of it like a big polar bear that's sitting next to you. you freak out at first, but then you get used to it. and then it takes a chunk of you. freaks you out. and then you settle down again.

bad analogy. hum.

as school progresses, clenching its green fingers around us in a fist, i've realized while i haven't felt too worried or stressed, i was certainly feeling the effects of self-centeredness. it made me a little ashamed and sad.

but, this week, somehow has been a time for rediscovering friends. little glimpses of quality time well spent with people i love.

i really need to catch up with people pronto.

i suggest some asian, or taco mac, or something else good.

btw, one of my best friends from zambia is getting lunch with me on sunday. does anybody want to join me? and have a good place to suggest (and if it's a little off campus, a car that can be provided?).

while the next couple weeks will be busy, i trust good things will happen.

hakuna matata

i was talking to the stingerette lady, the really cool one (amy) about yes man...

now that i've really enjoyed running in the mornings, i would love to have a camera. and run around a little after sun-up, and take random pictures.

i think though, it may have to wait until i've learned how to run 6+ miles.
i'm pretty sure i could run a pi now if i wanted to, alone.

i yell at the crashing waves of trial, as we did in destin

blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive...

this semester (in its four weeks) have been the trial of my life.

the question in any interview, "describe when you had to work in a team setting that was not favorable" is now booked. along with "describe when you had a serious conflict." also, "describe any tough situations you've had."

my response to all would be, "thank god for great friends."

i am useless without them. all of them.

hakuna matata is a phrase that needs to return.
now that i've learned to organize my time (decently)... i think it's time to be no worries. i shouldn't let 3110 faze me. and after all that, i enjoy all my other classes. and you know what? i like my groupmates for 3110 for the most part.

i ask "why me?" when there are other people that could be suffering instead of me.

my mindset should be "thank god."
because i'm blessed with this opportunity once again.

everything will all work out.

hakuna matata